Do you ever feel sometimes so drained that even thinking about what you need to do exhausts you? I look at all the cleaning that needs to be done and I want to crawl under a rock.
When this happens, I'm reminded of the commercial "a body at rest tends to stay at rest but a body in motion tends to stay in motion."
Well, sometimes I can't even get my body in motion. Even picking up the food bowls for my dogs exhausts me. I'm not caring for my cats as I should. I don't go outside and spend time with them. I have 6 foster cats and I definitely don't spend the time with them that I should.
My neck has been hurting for just over a month. It doesn't hurt as bad now. It's tolerable. The pain in between my shoulder blades is now dull. My lower back stays a bit sore. My knees don't work and my hands stay stiff.
I try to tell myself it doesn't hurt that bad. I know the pain is multiplied because of my fibro.
I'm not motivated to do anything. My rheumatologist let me go because I questioned her PA about why it takes her 3 - 7 days to refill my meds. Even when given the 72 hr notice before running out.
I was upset that she let me go. But I felt better when I went on line for reviews and read that other's had the same problems as I did with this office.
So my regular doctor is going to continue treating my fibro.

And some how, some way, I caught some germs from some one. My nose has been stopped up for two days now. And I've started feeling yucky.
I do have some great news! After spending some time with my niece and her family (they recently moved here to NC), I was told my brother who resides in Alaska, will be coming here for a visit in December. He's going to help fix a few things around the house for me. I'm super stoked that I will be spending Christmas with him. That hasn't happened since 1983. And at least I know I have a couple of months to get my house clean and organized.

I hope every one else who has fibro a wonderful and pain free day!

One of those damn fibro days

I have ZERO energy today.  My hands are so friggin' stiff and I need to make berry jelly today.  Sometimes the process of the day just wears you out:
get berries out of fridge, go sit down, go pick ripe berries, go sit down, feed Pookie (foster kitten), go sit down, get pots and pans out, go sit down and it goes on and on.

I do have good news however.  I saw my Rheumatologist yesterday and she did order a special x-ray of my knees.  She also put an injection in both my shoulder muscles.  Now, I wasn't too thrilled about this.  It's funny now, but it sure wasn't funny yesterday!

Doc:  Have we ever tried (garble garble)
Me:  What's that?
Doc:  Injections
Me:  NO NO NO NO NO
Doc:  It won't hurt
Me:  NO NO
Doc:  (putting her hands on my shoulders and looking right at me)  C'mon, can't you let the big girl out today?
Me:  Today?  You want to do it today?
Doc:  Yes.  Now let your big girl out
Me:  How big are the needles?
Doc:  I'll show them to you  (leaves room and comes back, shows me the needle)
Me:  (voice cracking)  How much of that are you sticking in me?
Doc:  Just this much (very little)
Me:  (Sighs heavily) Ok
She starts to spray this cold stuff on the first shoulder
Me:  That's cold
Doc:  I'm numbing you
Me:  You are?
Doc:  Did you think I was just going to jam a needle in you?
Then she jams the needle in.
Me:  screaming OWWWW! as my left leg shoots straight out.  I thought you said you were numbing it?
Doc:  I did

Ha ha ha ha ha  She then did the other shoulder but I was at least ready for it.

I also told her how angry I've been since seeing the spine specialist and being told I wasn't a good surgical candidate.  I told her I couldn't stand this fibro shit.  Unlike some other folks, my doctor is very kind and compassionate.
I wish every fibro infected person to have such a doctor.  I hope your search is successful.  I can't imagine not having my Rheumatologist.